As I approach the young age of 40, I am taking stock in my life. I mean, let’s be honest, half my life has already been lived so the second half has to be even more kick ass right?! Although I am entering a new age bracket, I still feel like a kid sometimes. An insecure kid always trying to prove herself to those around her. Always trying to make everyone happy and ensure that everyone likes her.
The past 6 years have really made me grow and adjust. Not because of my age but because of my experiences. I have lost more loved ones than I care to count (including my father and grandmother), I watched my sister who is also my best friend move over a thousand miles away and I lost friendships I thought I would have forever. These things change a person.
As I turn 40, I will continue on my journey to find myself, but it will be a more positive adventure. No more putting myself down and thinking I am not good enough. Life is too short for that. I won’t feel bad for the things I am passionate about even if it’s wearing Mickey ears, watching Harry Potter marathons, eating dessert and dancing in the rain. In fact, maybe I will do all of those things at the same time. Who cares? I’m 40!
To start my journey, I am creating a list to remind myself of my goal of self-love. I am making a promise to myself to do the following:
I’m not going to try so hard…to make sure people like me.
I am going to try harder…to make sure I like myself.
I am going to take more naps (because they are awesome).
I am going to give more of myself to those who need it and less to those that don’t.
I will seek balance.
I am going to take more walks in the rain.
I will remind my friends how much I appreciate their support.
I will travel to unknown places.
I will stop living in the past and focus on the present.
I will simplify my life.
I will stand up for myself more.
I will make self-care a priority.
I will do my best to not allow other people’s opinions control how I feel about myself and influence the choices I make in my life.
I will put down my phone and embrace the moment.
Most of all, I will just BE ME.
Turning 40 is a scary, life-changing event. Instead of running and hiding, I am choosing to embrace the change. I am choosing to embrace 40!